I have definitely been neglecting this bad boy for a while. I am not really in a mood to write about theatre, more about life, which is therefore about theatre (that was a joke). So I am really feeling confused being on this side of the tech table. I love acting and always have, but sometimes I feel like I do not really belong in either group. I think my first love was always acting, but then I ended up doing tech, stage managing, and loving that more than acting. I think the decision is made. I love tech too much. Acting is now a hobby.
On another note, I love having friends. I love that two of the most amazing people ever: Carissa and Adriana. They really make everyday so amazing at school. I never thought I would be staying in this amazing house. Eating this amazing food. Living here for an amazing week.

the other side

I am acting again

one one side, I love it. It is so much fun and I love it. But it sometimes feels liek this side of the tech table is all about egos. I don't want to be that kind of an actor. I love my tech stuff. Tech classes are my favorites. I wish I could have the best of both worlds, understand both sides at the same time

Those People You Love

I spend a lot of time in the theatre. That is obvious. THis is what I want to do with my life. But when I think about it, it is not because of the building. It is because of the people. I can be in that building, at Rene Row, or sitting in Carissa and Adriana's room, and I still love these people. I really truly love these people.

Take the guys' place: seriously one of my favorite places on the planet. I have so much fun whenever I go there. I really truly love just hanging out there, whether it is eating pickles or making pasta or watching "Trekies" it is always so much fun.

And I am just in a mood to say how much I love Carissa, Adriana, and Katie. I have so many people in the program I love, but there is something about the four of us and that first time to Sobe's after CENSORED was somethign absolutely amazing. I can just hang out with them and life feels so much better. This week when I did the scene with Katie for BREC, I had so much fun. And right now, I am sitting in Mashuda and it is just fun to sit here and be with them.

Listening to the Next Ten Minutes.

Could life be better right now.

Allie asked Chester: How are you doing today Chester?
His response: I'm doing just fine Lexie!

He isn't lousy as usual

Theatre, but not really

Today, I am sitting in my room, attempting to do my homework, but as usual on a Saturday, that fails epically. I love doing homework sometimes. But right now, I just do not have the energy. I do not want to have to go to strike tomorrow. I know--theatre is a temporary thing, but I cannot stand watching my hard work collapse. I spent so long hanging those two seemingly pointless screens for this show, and I have to take them down, which will probably only take a matter of minutes come tomorrow afternoon. This is probably the worst thing about theatre. You put so much work into it, but no matter what, it is a living thing--and like all living things it goes through stages (hahah, that is a pun) and it eventually collapses,and we have to keep going. I love it, and hate it.

On a different note, Yesterday was scholarship day. I met some absolutely amazing prospective students. One in particular stood out. her name was Katie, and she is from San Diego. She stayed with Adriana and Carissa. We all hung out and went bowling last night, which looking back at, I probably should have stayed at longer. There was also a gay guy who acts just like me according to Carissa--who knows, maybe we will have some more gays in the program next year.

It was fun.

Its been a while

So in the last week, we managed to make it through hell. Which was actually really really stressful. We opened and 'Nickel and Dimed,' while ungodly stressful with the cues involved, is a beautiful and incredible show to get to work on.

I love my girls on the fly rail. WHile they may talk a lot (and I am guilty of the same charge), they have really been doing a great job.

This morning in Acting I cried. Not about my lack of monologue memorization, but because of the personalization exercise we had to do. We had to image three people we had some sort of emotional connection to. I knew I wanted to do my sister, but the other two just sort of happened. We then had to just talk to them and say how we felt, what we felt, what was so important about our relationships to that person. It is amazing what can happen. I went from crying because I miss my sister so much, to yelling at someone and finally admitting the hatred I have bottled up inside, to crying while talking to my grandpa. I haven't thought about him in a very long time without it being a laugh. I balled my eyes out. That is such a weird feeling to be so vulnerable in front of my friends. But you gotta love that class.

Yay for Chuck Norris.

Hmmmm. Tech takes forever. I made Emily cry from too much stress and my lack of planning. We have ten million props. We had to re-rig the entire grid system after I spent hours on end up there.

But I love my life.

I love my crew (they are amazing).

I love Adriana.

I love working in this business.

I said I would't talk shit

I don;t want to talk trash about anyone on here, but there are times when certain actors just get annoying. really really really annoying. I get it, I am an actor form time to time too, but it is not an excuse to act completely a) ignorant, or b) like a prima donna.

Ok. Got that one out.

I am exhausted. I like that Chester asks me to come in so that I can do certain things. But its tiring. And now I have homework. And I just want to climb into bed. Stupid Spanish assignment,

I think I need bike gloves to keep handling the ropes. I am not a big fan of the construction gloves...they are just awkward. But some bike gloves might give me some really nice control over those bitches.

Raped

Today, my monologue officially sucked. I spent half an hour in the bathroom yelling at myself last night to try to memorize it. that did not seem to stick. I couldn't remember beyond my first few words. I really kind of wanted to internally combust. I haven't felt so embarrassed since I got to school. Is it the stress? I mean, i put the effort into doing the monologue--probably not as much as I could have (I obviously didn't "own" the monologue, but I knew it.

PR said I can come in and work it with her. Hope that works.

Stupid Fraying 30 year old Hemp.

So my hands are aching. Another three hours on the grid and pin rail. Keeping the tension in hemp ropes is difficult and painful. When Chester commented on facebook that the rope is thirty years old, I started to wonder why we can;t replace it. I mean, it's safe, but so painful. Yay. The splinters in my fingers are sort of obnoxious at the moment, but oh well. It was fun. And Carissa and I had a great time talking for most of the time.
And Chester was in a great mood all day. My guess is that is was the cake. He did not seem quite as lousy as usual.
And the other day, Connie brought up which shop I should work in. I love both of them. On one hand, I love the work in the shop. But I also love sewing. It is a completely new love. Its fun and its easy. And if I worked upstairs, I would get to wear classy clothes every day. Hmmmm- I just cannot choose. Connie had suggested I could do both. Who knows.
And on another note, with my new earring and all, I was kind of scared for my life. But Deb said it was fine and I can use a spacer, and Connie really did not seem to care. She just said a tattoo would have been a bad choice. Sorry Doug.

And Emily Tau is officially amazing tonight. She brought us skittles.

Oh. And the rope can officially die.

So today was unexpectedly long. I went to classes and planned on a fairly normal day, but was greeted with a text at 2:00 as I was about to set in for a "homework session" and I was falling asleep. Ratsberger needed help up on the grid. So I show up, he explains the job and then tells me he has to go. Thank God Joe showed up and came up to help. that took three hours with the two of us. I mean--I love the theatre, but three hours up on the grid, sixty feet up, hauling twenty pound loft blocks and, in the excruciating heat is a rough afternoon when you wanted a nap.

But rehearsal was fun. James seemed to be in a good mood. Adriana and I handeled notes pretty well. Maybe tomorrow night I will take notes for Jess.

Hey all.

So I am Lex, a freshman at Marquette University. I am a theatre major. But if you are here because you know me, then you probably already know that. I am going to start writing about all of my time spent in the Helfaer. Some of this might be random memories or daily happenstances. I don't want to talk shit about people or anything like that. There is a list where I will log in all the time I spend working in the shops, at rehearsals, ASMing, even seeing shows. This should be fun.